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The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.
The Road goes ever on and on
Out from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
Let others follow it who can!
Let them a journey new begin,
But I at last with weary feet
Will turn towards the lighted inn,
My evening-rest and sleep to meet.
Today is J.R.R Tolkien's Eleventy-Second birthday... and I thought the passage seemed appropriate for this particular day for one particular person in my life.
Good luck on your classes this term and have a safe journey, Cat!
When I left my house in San Jose this morning, I could see the blue sky, and rays of sunshine layered the land. Shortly after I got onto the highway and began driving northbound towards work, sheets of rain begain pouring down. Just outside my office was when it seemed at it's worst, although as I write this, the rain is gone for the moment, and there is a very slight chance I will see the sun again today.
Yesterday after going to the gym, I came back sore and exhausted. I started working on the chest and the arms. My arms felt so tight and taut afterwards I almost couldn't drive home due to the pain. After going home, I fell asleep pretty quickly after that, much to my surprise.
With the exception of a few things, I'm generally pretty happy on my outlook of life. I was blessed to be raised in a good family with good values on how to live life. I have a lot going for me, and at times, I think that I don't appreciate the moments I live enough until the moment is past.
After my graduation at times my parents did put a little pressure on me to get married before I turned 30, over the recent years they've relaxed on that (which I am thankful for), in part because they know that I'm not going to marry someone that I've only known for a short time. I think having older cousins who are still single in their 30s helps too.
My first task of the New Year is, ironically enough, in cleaning up my past life. Over the years that I've lived in the Bay Area, I've kept everything, and thrown very little out -- receipts, past papers I wrote, old magazines, heck, I know I've probably got a box of newspapers somewhere. The useless stuff gets thrown out, and I've cleared out some of the clutter in my life. This will be one heck of a project but it's something that absolutely must be done. My apartment at present seems even more cluttered than when I first moved in, but that's because organization takes up space.
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people feel that they have known you their entire life. Many often open up to you for they view you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although people trust you, you have a hard time trusting them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled up inside, or display them very quietly. It is alright to open up every once in a while.
It's been raining pretty heavily this entire morning. Even though I like the sound of rain, having the rain outside, being in this cold apartment of mine, it's still kind of gray and gloomy. I know that L.A. is pretty gray, but not raining by watching the Rose Parade.
My sister is watching the Rose Parade on my TV, while I do all the little chores I need to do around the house. In L.A., the Rose Parade is such a big thing, they broadcast it so many times. I remember a few years ago, when I stayed here for New Year's for the first time ever, I was surprised when I found out they didn't broadcast it on every major network channel the entire day, but rather once live, one rerun later in the day, and *maybe* a rerun in the evening.
It's 2004 now and I wonder how long it'll be before I remember to write that on my checks. (Yes even in this day and age, checks are unavoidable).
I tried to blog at midnight, but it ate my post. I wonder if that phenomena is anything like when 2000 came around everyone picking up their phones to check if they still worked (which for a week before they told everyone not to do because it could lead to a collapse of the phone system).
Hope everyone has a Happy and Prosperous New Year!
I am a packrat when it comes to things. My computers reflect this. The amount of stored goods I have reflects this. I was going over some computer records, and there's a pretty big gap in my computer life between March of 1999 and May of 2002. I had thought I had kept pretty good records, but it turns out that when I upgraded ICQ in May of 2002, I had accidentally wiped out the history of hundreds of conversations I had with people over the years. This saddens me greatly, as that was when I first met Cat, and I had always thought that I had these conversations stored somewhere.
I found a bunch of old journal entries and writings ... some that I posted on the old website, some that I didn't. I imagine I'll organize and group this stuff up if I ever have a new website.
The new year is always a time of reflection for me. I think about the past, and I think about the future. I've had the tradition of posting my resolutions on my blog for some time now, so I guess this is as good a time as any to over over them.
Last Years Resolutions:
Take some classes
I did accomplish this. I started in the spring by taking a creative writing class (which I dropped), and then finished off the year with Mandarin and Cantonese.
2003 was the travelling year for me. I managed to visit Chicago, Vancouver, Edmonton, as well as take trips to San Francisco, Monterey, San Diego and Los Angeles. I also moved to San Jose, a city which I rarely visited.
Be kinder to myself
Reading this resolution now, I'm not quite sure what I meant by it. I imagine it meant don't take things so hard, and don't beat myself up over things.
Get rid of junk
I managed to get rid of a lot of stuff before I moved to San Jose.
Finish writing at least one book
Didn't finish. Maybe next year.
To stop always running away
Yeah, I've pretty much stopped with the escape artist routine. Before this year, my way of dealing with situations was to try and escape. Even after I got laid off, I still ran away to Vancouver, but I made sure that I had dealt with the situation so that I could enjoy my time there.
Cook at least 3 times a week
This did not happen. I was doing pretty good in Foster City, but this stopped around the time that I met Cat. My kitchen in San Jose is horrific, so I doubt this will be improving in the near future.
Next Year's Resolutions:
Continue with self-improvement.
Continue to learn more about my heritage and culture.
Try and go home at least once a month.
I feel like there should be more.
As far as recollecting this year goes... It's one in which lots of things happened, some good things, some bad things. There were things that happened this year that I will never forget, and some which have already been forgotten. It was the year that I truly and deeply fell in love with someone, and the year that I finally let the past go.
I hate airport security. I know that it's a neccessary part of the process of flying, and that it's for safety, but that doesn't make me hate it any less.
But I think what I hate most is just how unreasonable and rude some screeners can be.
Not only that, but I think they specifically target certain nationalities and ethnicities. I've always been pulled aside for the through check, even if I pass through the metal detector without any beeps. Now, to be perfectly frank, I do carry alot of electronics when I travel, so it could be that as well.
Hope you all had a safe and merry celebration tonight! I can hear stuff going on outside, a few minutes early. Just a reminder for those of you driving back tonight, be safe -- the snow (for those of you with some) and the drunks can make conditions dangerous.
The Bay Area is currently being battered by rain, causing some flash floods. There's up to 4 inches of standing water in some places (I definitely do not want to drive through something like that).
It's hard to get my mind back onto working today.
One of the things I miss about having a webpage (as opposed to a blog) is being able to do all the nifty little art projects I used to be able to do, or the experimental stuff that I would play with every once in a while. It makes me wonder if I'll bring my personal site back, since there are some things that I simply cannot illustrate with eloquence in my words.
Driving to work this morning, the traffic was relatively light, considering that the rain is falling fast and hard outside. I guess a lot of folks are still on their holiday vacation. I don't hate driving in the rain, however I do dislike the way that some people drive in the rain. Second to snowy and icy conditions, I think rain is a pretty dangerous condition to be driving in, which is why I don't understand why people aren't more cautious in the rain.
Although this accident isn't due to rain, it is still a
. I can't imagine 7 kids stuffed into a single car going 85 to 100 mph all without wearing seatbelts. My thoughts of sympathy go out to their parents.